Surprise! I’m pregnant! Justin and I are incredibly excited and grateful to share that baby Butler will be arriving in early October. My heart is so full and happy, I can barely contain it. Becoming a mom is something I’ve always dreamed of, so these past few months have been a bit surreal. I’m so happy that I can finally share this news with you all of you; I feel like time has been standing still since we found out, haha. I love sharing so much of my life with the readers on Basically Bronwyn and on social media, so keeping this secret was quite a challenge for me. We are NOT finding out the baby’s gender before he/she arrives, so that’ll make for a fun surprise ahead :)
How We Found Out
In full disclosure, we had been trying for a baby a few months before I finally got that positive pregnancy test. Along came January 23rd and I had had an exceptionally emotional day, but couldn’t quite put my finger on what was wrong. I knew my cycle wasn’t going to start for another day or two, so I figured it was too soon to take a test, but with the state of my emotions and the “off” feeling I had, I thought I would take a pregnancy test just to see.
Justin had a conference call with the PHARM CBD team that evening, so I decided to wait until he got on the phone to take it. I didn’t want to tell him I was taking it because I assumed it would be negative; either it would be too soon for a positive result since I hadn’t even had a missed period yet, or I just wouldn’t be pregnant that month.
To my surprise, as soon as I took the test, it was immediately positive. *Enter ALL THE EMOTIONS AND FEELINGS. I only had one test in the house because it came with the ovulation test kit I had purchased, so even though I was dying to take another one, I knew I’d have to wait until the next day.
While I immediately wanted to tell Justin, I decided to wait until he was off of the conference call, which felt like FOREVER, haha. I pretty much paced the house and walked a hole in our floor for what felt like the longest 30 minutes of my life. But as soon as I heard him walking down the hall, I looked at him and said “guess what?” and with a blank stare back, I told him I was pregnant. His response: “No you’re not!” I showed him the test and there was no denying it was 100% positive.
Talk about a sleepless night, filled with excitement, shock, nerves, happiness, etc. etc. etc.
1st Trimester Recap
I plan on sharing a more in-depth post on how my first trimester has gone very soon, but figured I’d share a quick recap. Moral of the story, it hasn’t gone at all like I thought it would. I feel like I need to preface this with saying that I’m SO grateful for this baby, and I never take it for granted that we’ve been blessed with getting pregnant. This first trimester has been a little rough, though, haha.
Between the extreme fatigue, nausea, and worst of all, having weekly spotting, I’ve had a hard time adjusting to losing a lot of control over my body. Things I did pre-pregnancy, like working out and even just making dinner, pretty much came to halt right before 6th week. I’ve spent a majority of the first trimester on pelvic rest, along with occasional bed rest to help reduce/limit the spotting. As much as I’ve been excited and overjoyed, I was constantly living in a state of fear and anxiousness.
Luckily, I’ve had an incredible support system along the way. Justin has been so amazing; not only picking up all of my slack around the house/life in general, but staying SO positive and lifting my spirits in the scariest of times. He’s let me cry on his shoulder when I needed to, but knows exactly what to say to cheer me up. My mom….bless her, haha. I can’t tell you how many late night texts I’ve sent and phone calls I’ve made asking her to pray in those scary moments, venting about my fears/frustrations, and her giving me advice.
I definitely lucked out with having an amazing OB-GYN, as well. Her and the staff have been so patient and accommodating with each nerve-wrecking ultrasound visit and phone call I’ve had to make. While I should’ve only had 1 ultrasound at this point, I’ve had multiple to check on our little babe. THANK GOD he/she always has a super strong heartbeat, is growing accordingly, and everything always looks great- we even got to see the baby wiggling around like a happy camper. I guess he/she already likes to give us panic attacks :)
What’s To Come
Now that I’m heading into the 2nd trimester (as of today, I’m a little over 12 weeks along), I have started to feel a little better- praise be! :) I’m hoping those 2nd trimester glory days I keep hearing about aren’t too far away. Crossing my fingers the nausea starts to subside and my energy returns, so I can finally start doing all of, or at least some of, the things I did before. I think Justin’s looking forward to me feeling better, as well :)
I will probably share trimester updates, nursery decor, and posts like that along the way. I’ll also continue to post the usual content that I love on the blog, as well.
Justin and I are so excited for this next chapter together, and can’t thank you all enough for the love and support along the way! Stay tuned!